this is the last post ill be posting here on xanga.if you dont like what i got to say quit reading. or get the fuck off this page. k. i dont got time for peoples games. ne more

someone who i care about and me are no longer friends. she doesnt realise how hard it is to care about someone then they end up going wit someone else. "your ass got OWN3D " -lance manson. this is so fucked. how do you know realise that its hard to get over someone in a day it wont happen. next ill get the mood swing thing... o its just a mood swing. but guess what its not.

fred is my homie he sais the same lest give up on relationships and turn into serial killers. life is hard enought with out mind games. im srry i did feel something that i hvnt felt in along ass time and im srry that im the one whos fucking bringing you down. but ok. ill leave u . so i dont. u say its easy. its the hardest thing ima be doing till the end of forever. IM FUCKING SICK OF THIS MAN , im srry. i give up on people. im srry im losing my best fucking friend ever.. i thought that no matter would she would be there for me forever.. but i guess not.

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I'm feeling cold today
Not hurt just Fucked away
I'm devastated and frustrated
God I feel so bound
So why'd I feel the need?
I think it's time to bleed
I'm gonna cut myself
and watch the blood hit the ground
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what to say about today..

well to start off i had mr hargis this morning and it was fun ... till fred came and got me and told hargis that he needed help on the alr site.... um it was cool then lances ass still didnt show up for school today... the counselor called me into her office today.. fucking melissa filed sexual harrasment charges against me saying i posted something on the internet about her when clearly i didnt.. or i wouldnt have the conscience to talk here now.. or post about the false acusations. i hope she tries to take me to court cause ima sue the fuck out of her.

me n parker went to lunch had some fun messing with teachers.. lol then came back ate. and went to class. then i went to law.. i was supposed to work the sound equipment but i was in a bad mood because of the charges brought against me.. mr knox said its ok just go work downstairs.. so i did

me n jasmine were laughing all class period... i can do this voice that somewhat sounds like stitch from the disney series lol.... i dont know why but she believed me when i said it was me who did it.. lol ' ohana it means family'

lol .. then i came home .. talked to indira well not talked Im currently talking to her.... lol um ill prolly have another post later tonight..

currently looking for a meaningful relationship. i see how parker n kristin are and i want to have someone whos always gonna be there for me no matter what even throught the rough times. i think i found a person who will do me a world of good now its just up to her .

LOVE YOU INDI   , p dizzle (aka parker)s DA shizNIT

ok well first off today i woke up at like 3 am not feeling so good so i slammed 3 shots of JOSE CUERVO and then it made me puke my guts up so i felt better that normally works... but then i felt like shit from exhaustion so i made a crown n coke for the day ahead.... school sucked as normal..

but um the highlights of my day were in pe when indira told me she loved me lol im weird like that i guess.. then fucking jessica nowlin or however u spell her last name lets just call her it for now... talked shit to indira... and showing her no respect so i was about to slap a hoe..

then finally 8th period came and the day was over... lol west class was fun as normal but somewhat different for some odd reason..

o on to my g35 so i got the g35 today.. and the frikin japos put in the order wrong so i have to drive this one for a few months till they get my car off the line... which is really agravatiing ive had nothing but problems with them since they started paying my insurance... fuckheads.. um thats about it for now.. talking to people bored.. trying to fix my life like norma...

STIL TRYING TO FIND A RELATIONSHIP!!! lol not desperate just in search.. lol right thats what they all say.. o well thin what u want..

I LOVE INDIRA!

love to those who want it especially those who dont.

lets see .... today..

i woke up at 6 took the z for an oil change... came home took a short nap... woke up around 2 talked to jasmine... then went to the store to buy my cousin a present he turned 1 today ... hes already gonna be a boxer / guitarist lol... he fights like a man !!! lol ... talked to indira for a little bit.. she told me to call her in an hour.. and again she didnt answer when i called her back.... talked to fred on the phone for a hour or so.... o i forgot i cleaned out the z because im turning it in tomorrow at 9 am and i get my g35 ...

now on to that.. i think they screwed up my order cause i was supposed to pick the car up thursday and i didnt cause i didnt get the email.... they said it was on the lot but the only one there was a silver one i orderd black and it was an automatic when i orderd the 6 speed short throw transmission.. fuckin japo's cant get anything right ima have to take over the company lol ne ways im out for now